I didn't send out Christmas letters this year- Because so much is going on, and we were dealing with some issues personally, and professionally. First and formost we are all healthy!
As you all know with the state of our economy, everyone seems to know someone directly effected....we have really been hit. Our household was directly effected by Dax getting laid off as his company decided to rid the Sacramento position he held. Luckily he has been able to freelance from home so the boys can did not notice a real change and could continue with their activities.
Next my store, as sales continued to decline, rent increased, and credit tapped we decided to close our doors, and are currently in the liquidation process. I have really been struggling with this as this is also my hobby, and it was my dream, so I have to deal with this loss. It's been emotional and I am so thankful I have a business partner along side with me to get through it.
On top of this Dax and I are legally seperating. I did not want to make this public until a firm decision has been made. I was able to move in with a friend just 2 miles from the house. We have made a schedule so that the boys are not disrupted in their schooling, and activities, and we can both be as equally involved as we always have been . I chose to move, because then Dax can continue to freelance from home without being interuppted as he needs a constant Internet connection. Had he had to move, the boys would have suffered with the loss of that income, as I do not have any.
I do not want to go into the reasons behind this decision, but please know the boys are safe, and we are dealing with their feelings the best way we know how.
Also Honey and Holly (the dogs) are doing well!
We will be losing the house by the end of the year, but at least we know that the boys can finish their school year - and I will be looking for full time employment (I have already had an interview! Fingers are crossed!) and then its on to an apartment. The boys really want to stay at their school, so that will be my goal first and foremost.
We are getting through this. We are ok, its a daily struggle, but we are hanging in there. Life is going on, the boys are still in scouting, and DJ even started wrestling.
I hope you can all understand why I have been more distant, the last several months, as I have been consumed with these changes. I have many close friends surrounding me here with their support, and getting me through this time. I just feel its time to tell all of our close friends and family- And we have really tried in every way to make everything work out, but it just didnt. This is a real freedom for me to tell everyone I love. And its just time for change.
I'm looking forward to a better year!
My life has been full of "full- circle" moments lately, and it's kinda wierd. I mean sometimes you think your life is just supposed to always move forward, but lately, its been jumping all back and forth. Sometimes feel like a 10 year old shy little girl meeting someone for the first time, totally insecure and nervous, then im that 17 year old wild child, that gave my parents such grief, then im that 23 year old single mom sleeping on an air mattress in my parents basement feeling hopeless and helpless, and then the 28 year old work-a-aholic, responsible, budgeting fanatic.
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